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 In college Suzi developed an outrageous but successful technique for recruiting love slaves.She advertised.Not in the student newspaper or on the bulletin boards, but by making loud and frequent mention of her sexual preferences as she talked with her peers in the cafeteria, in coffee shops, and in other public places where small groups gathered. In college Suzi developed an outrageous but successful technique for recruiting love slaves.She advertised.Not in the student newspaper or on the bulletin boards, but by making loud and frequent mention of her sexual preferences as she talked with her peers in the cafeteria, in coffee shops, and in other public places where small groups gathered.
  
-“We missed you at the meeting yesterday,​” an acquaintance might remark. +“We missed you at the meeting yesterday,​” an acquaintance might remark.\\ 
-“Oh, I went with Michael to watch them tear down the old Samson building.” +“Oh, I went with Michael to watch them tear down the old Samson building.”\\ 
-“How was it?” +“How was it?”\\ 
-“He wanted me to go to bed with him, but he wouldn’t let me tie him up, so he still doesn’t know me as well as he’d like.” +“He wanted me to go to bed with him, but he wouldn’t let me tie him up, so he still doesn’t know me as well as he’d like.”\\ 
-Suzi was sufficiently entertaining that the young lady who had missed her at the meeting usually wouldn’t mind being used as a foil, but a few of her colleagues positively hated her. +Suzi was sufficiently entertaining that the young lady who had missed her at the meeting usually wouldn’t mind being used as a foil, but a few of her colleagues positively hated her.\\ 
-Some young man might invite her to a movie, and she’d answer, loudly enough to be heard by everyone in the vicinity, “Okay, but if you want me to come back to your room, you’ll have to give me your key and let me tie your hands behind you before we go in.”+Some young man might invite her to a movie, and she’d answer, loudly enough to be heard by everyone in the vicinity, “Okay, but if you want me to come back to your room, you’ll have to give me your key and let me tie your hands behind you before we go in.”\\
 When she succeeded in recruiting a love slave after being without one for a few days, she’d tell those of her acquaintances who knew him, taking her usual care to be overheard, “Jeremy agreed to be my new slave.”Those who didn’t know him were told, “I have a new slave.His name is Jeremy.Do you know him?​”Since they didn’t, she’d have to bring him around and introduce him.“This is Jeremy.He’s my slave.”Acquaintances who were initially unfamiliar with Jeremy were thus played for two ads apiece, and rumors of Suzi’s sexual preferences spread rapidly.After all, Jeremy wouldn’t last forever, and one of today’s passersby might turn out to be his replacement.When Jeremy finally moved on (it usually took about seven weeks for her trivialization of his feelings and motives to become intolerable),​ Suzi would lament his departure loudly enough to attract the notice of his successor, greeting each of her acquaintances with the same tragic announcement:​“I broke up with Jeremy.I need a new slave.” When she succeeded in recruiting a love slave after being without one for a few days, she’d tell those of her acquaintances who knew him, taking her usual care to be overheard, “Jeremy agreed to be my new slave.”Those who didn’t know him were told, “I have a new slave.His name is Jeremy.Do you know him?​”Since they didn’t, she’d have to bring him around and introduce him.“This is Jeremy.He’s my slave.”Acquaintances who were initially unfamiliar with Jeremy were thus played for two ads apiece, and rumors of Suzi’s sexual preferences spread rapidly.After all, Jeremy wouldn’t last forever, and one of today’s passersby might turn out to be his replacement.When Jeremy finally moved on (it usually took about seven weeks for her trivialization of his feelings and motives to become intolerable),​ Suzi would lament his departure loudly enough to attract the notice of his successor, greeting each of her acquaintances with the same tragic announcement:​“I broke up with Jeremy.I need a new slave.”
  
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 What she did was tie Barry to the four corners of her bed and say, “I’ve decided that from now on, you’re going to be my little boy.”She got out a pair of scissors, a safety razor and a can of shaving cream, and added, “I’ll have to take off your pubic hair so you’ll look like a little boy.” What she did was tie Barry to the four corners of her bed and say, “I’ve decided that from now on, you’re going to be my little boy.”She got out a pair of scissors, a safety razor and a can of shaving cream, and added, “I’ll have to take off your pubic hair so you’ll look like a little boy.”
  
-She cut the hair short, then shaved it down to the skin, rinsed off the residual shaving cream with a wet towel, and admired the effect.She found it quite a turn-on.Shaving does make a man’s cock look bigger, and there’s something incredibly sexy about the curve of a bare mound.She told him he’d have to keep himself shaved for her, that if she ever found his hair growing back he’d be sorry. +She cut the hair short, then shaved it down to the skin, rinsed off the residual shaving cream with a wet towel, and admired the effect.She found it quite a turn-on.Shaving does make a man’s cock look bigger, and there’s something incredibly sexy about the curve of a bare mound.She told him he’d have to keep himself shaved for her, that if she ever found his hair growing back he’d be sorry.\\ 
-She straddled his face and had him eat her, then pulled her jeans back on.She untied his wrists from the bed and tied them together in front of him, untied his ankles, and told him to stand up. +She straddled his face and had him eat her, then pulled her jeans back on.She untied his wrists from the bed and tied them together in front of him, untied his ankles, and told him to stand up.\\ 
-“See, little boy?I got you naked and now your pee-pee is sticking out and I get to look at it.”+“See, little boy?I got you naked and now your pee-pee is sticking out and I get to look at it.”\\
 She had him stand with his back to the wall, just under a hook she’d placed a few inches below the ceiling.She stood on a chair and fastened his wrists to it. She had him stand with his back to the wall, just under a hook she’d placed a few inches below the ceiling.She stood on a chair and fastened his wrists to it.
  
-“I get to play with it, too.” +“I get to play with it, too.”\\ 
-She sat on the chair and milked him, using one palm on the undersurface of his cock and the other on top. +She sat on the chair and milked him, using one palm on the undersurface of his cock and the other on top.\\ 
-When she knew his ejaculation was inevitable, she said, “I think something’s going to happen.” +When she knew his ejaculation was inevitable, she said, “I think something’s going to happen.”\\ 
-She let go. +She let go.\\ 
-Barry panted and gasped, his cock sticking up at a forty-five degree angle.Suddenly it dropped almost to horizontal, then sprang back up as it spurted. +Barry panted and gasped, his cock sticking up at a forty-five degree angle.Suddenly it dropped almost to horizontal, then sprang back up as it spurted.\\ 
-“I made you wet!Your pee-pee is doing its thing!” +“I made you wet!Your pee-pee is doing its thing!”\\ 
-It bounced and spurted several times more, then came to rest, still erect, pointed just a little downward.She tweaked his nipples with her fingers and it bounced again. +It bounced and spurted several times more, then came to rest, still erect, pointed just a little downward.She tweaked his nipples with her fingers and it bounced again.\\ 
-“Oh! Little boys’ nipples are connected to their pee-pees just like girls’.” +“Oh! Little boys’ nipples are connected to their pee-pees just like girls’.”\\ 
-She watched his cock as it shrank. +She watched his cock as it shrank.\\ 
-“You must be so embarrassed,​ having to stand here all naked in front of a girl, with your pee-pee dripping like that, remembering how I watched it bounce up and down while you wet.” +“You must be so embarrassed,​ having to stand here all naked in front of a girl, with your pee-pee dripping like that, remembering how I watched it bounce up and down while you wet.”\\ 
-“What a trip!” +“What a trip!”\\ 
-“You know, some day when you grow up, you’ll have a wife to fuck whenever you want, and you’ll wish that instead, she’d tie you up just like this and play with your pee-pee.Too bad you’ll be too embarrassed to let her know.” +“You know, some day when you grow up, you’ll have a wife to fuck whenever you want, and you’ll wish that instead, she’d tie you up just like this and play with your pee-pee.Too bad you’ll be too embarrassed to let her know.”\\ 
-“Maybe it’ll be you.” +“Maybe it’ll be you.”\\ 
-“Just because you’re in love with me, that doesn’t mean I’m going to marry you.Here.I’ll untie you now.” +“Just because you’re in love with me, that doesn’t mean I’m going to marry you.Here.I’ll untie you now.”\\ 
-She stood on the chair again and released him from the hook, then got down and untied his wrists.+She stood on the chair again and released him from the hook, then got down and untied his wrists.\\
 Barry didn’t spend nearly so much time with Maureen after that.He kept himself shaved and Suzi never left off teasing him about being her little boy.He probably never suspected that Suzi was even aware of Maureen’s existence.What he did know was that if he undressed for Maureen, his missing hair would be difficult to explain.Besides,​ Maureen couldn’t possibly turn him on as Suzi did, no matter what liberties she might allow.No woman could.As it turned out, his relationship with Suzi lasted fourteen more weeks, for a total of seventeen.That was ten more weeks than average and thirteen more than could have been expected if she hadn’t shaved him, so the shaving trick really impressed me. Barry didn’t spend nearly so much time with Maureen after that.He kept himself shaved and Suzi never left off teasing him about being her little boy.He probably never suspected that Suzi was even aware of Maureen’s existence.What he did know was that if he undressed for Maureen, his missing hair would be difficult to explain.Besides,​ Maureen couldn’t possibly turn him on as Suzi did, no matter what liberties she might allow.No woman could.As it turned out, his relationship with Suzi lasted fourteen more weeks, for a total of seventeen.That was ten more weeks than average and thirteen more than could have been expected if she hadn’t shaved him, so the shaving trick really impressed me.
  
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 One afternoon, we had progressed to where we were lying in bed naked, his hand doing delicious things to my pussy while I played with his cock.We were face to face on our sides, sometimes kissing but mostly just watching the reflections of the yummies we were giving.When he thought I was horny enough, he moved closer and positioned his cock so that it was pressed against the outer lips of my pussy, ready to enter me.I kept my legs together while he tried to make some sort of headway, and of course he couldn’t. One afternoon, we had progressed to where we were lying in bed naked, his hand doing delicious things to my pussy while I played with his cock.We were face to face on our sides, sometimes kissing but mostly just watching the reflections of the yummies we were giving.When he thought I was horny enough, he moved closer and positioned his cock so that it was pressed against the outer lips of my pussy, ready to enter me.I kept my legs together while he tried to make some sort of headway, and of course he couldn’t.
  
-“I’d like you to keep playing with me, and I’d like to keep playing with you, but you’re not going to put that in me.” +“I’d like you to keep playing with me, and I’d like to keep playing with you, but you’re not going to put that in me.”\\ 
-“Okay.” +“Okay.”\\ 
-We went back to what we’d been doing, and after a couple of minutes I said, “I think I’d like to just relax and enjoy what you’re doing for a while, then take a turn playing with you.”+We went back to what we’d been doing, and after a couple of minutes I said, “I think I’d like to just relax and enjoy what you’re doing for a while, then take a turn playing with you.”\\
 He went along with that and fingered me through several orgasms, obviously enjoying the show.When I’d had enough, I let him know and we spent a few minutes cuddling and kissing, then I told him to lie back and relax.I knelt alongside him and stroked his cock until he came, then a little more until he was done.Then some more cuddling, kissing, and the pleasant sort of talk that naturally follows a good come. He went along with that and fingered me through several orgasms, obviously enjoying the show.When I’d had enough, I let him know and we spent a few minutes cuddling and kissing, then I told him to lie back and relax.I knelt alongside him and stroked his cock until he came, then a little more until he was done.Then some more cuddling, kissing, and the pleasant sort of talk that naturally follows a good come.
  
-By the next time, he’d engineered a fiendish little strategy around that scenario.He encouraged me to lie back and relax while he fingered me, then he moved down and ate me.Soon I was soaking wet at the edge of orgasm.He lunged forward and tried to get in. +By the next time, he’d engineered a fiendish little strategy around that scenario.He encouraged me to lie back and relax while he fingered me, then he moved down and ate me.Soon I was soaking wet at the edge of orgasm.He lunged forward and tried to get in.\\ 
-I managed to avoid him, and by the time he reoriented himself I was off the bed. +I managed to avoid him, and by the time he reoriented himself I was off the bed.\\ 
-I told you, you’re not going to put that in me!” I scolded. +I told you, you’re not going to put that in me!” I scolded.\\ 
-“Why not? It’s only natural.” +“Why not? It’s only natural.”\\ 
-“Because it’s my body and I say no!I’m tired of guys trying to use me.My last boyfriend tried to do the same thing, and the one before him too.Nobody cares how I feel about it.” +“Because it’s my body and I say no!I’m tired of guys trying to use me.My last boyfriend tried to do the same thing, and the one before him too.Nobody cares how I feel about it.”\\ 
-“I wouldn’t mind if you tried to use me like that.”+“I wouldn’t mind if you tried to use me like that.”\\
 “That’s you, and you probably haven’t really thought about it anyway. We were having such a good time.Why did you have to mess it up?” “That’s you, and you probably haven’t really thought about it anyway. We were having such a good time.Why did you have to mess it up?”
-“I didn’t think I was messing it up.I didn’t think it’d upset you.” +“I didn’t think I was messing it up.I didn’t think it’d upset you.”\\ 
-“Well, it does.It really turns me off.” +“Well, it does.It really turns me off.”\\ 
-I started dressing. Steve watched me with a hopeless sort of sadness, then did the same. +I started dressing. Steve watched me with a hopeless sort of sadness, then did the same.\\ 
-“I’m really sorry I upset you,” he said when we were dressed.“I made a mistake. I wish there were some way I could fix it.” +“I’m really sorry I upset you,” he said when we were dressed.“I made a mistake. I wish there were some way I could fix it.”\\ 
-I shot him an exasperated look and thought a moment.I tried to look like I was considering what he’d said, but what I was really doing was trying to figure out how to steer the conversation so as to get him to agree to be my love slave. +I shot him an exasperated look and thought a moment.I tried to look like I was considering what he’d said, but what I was really doing was trying to figure out how to steer the conversation so as to get him to agree to be my love slave.\\ 
-“It’s probably just as well you can’t fix it.If you could, you’d just look for another opportunity to try to rape me.” +“It’s probably just as well you can’t fix it.If you could, you’d just look for another opportunity to try to rape me.”\\ 
-“I didn’t try to rape you.I’m not like that.I thought you wanted the same thing I did.” +“I didn’t try to rape you.I’m not like that.I thought you wanted the same thing I did.”\\ 
-“I told you last time, I don’t want that.” +“I told you last time, I don’t want that.”\\ 
-“I thought you changed your mind.” +“I thought you changed your mind.”\\ 
-“If I’d have changed my mind, I would have told you.” +“If I’d have changed my mind, I would have told you.”\\ 
-“I didn’t know that.Look, I am sorry I upset you, even if there isn’t a way to fix it.” +“I didn’t know that.Look, I am sorry I upset you, even if there isn’t a way to fix it.”\\ 
-I knew this was the best opportunity I was going to get.If I was going to make anything of it, I would have to be as outrageous as Suzi.Now or never, George!Palms sweating, heart racing… +I knew this was the best opportunity I was going to get.If I was going to make anything of it, I would have to be as outrageous as Suzi.Now or never, George!Palms sweating, heart racing…\\ 
-“Maybe you can fix it.Something you said gives me an idea.” +“Maybe you can fix it.Something you said gives me an idea.”\\ 
-“What did I say?” +“What did I say?”\\ 
-“You said you wouldn’t mind if I tried to use you like that.” +“You said you wouldn’t mind if I tried to use you like that.”\\ 
-“Yeah?​” +“Yeah?”\\ 
-“Okay, so how about we make an agreement that I use you instead of you trying to use me?We’ll say that you’re my love slave and I’ll control all the touching we do.You touch me when and how I want, and only when and how I want, and I touch you when and how I want, and you don’t argue about it.”+“Okay, so how about we make an agreement that I use you instead of you trying to use me?We’ll say that you’re my love slave and I’ll control all the touching we do.You touch me when and how I want, and only when and how I want, and I touch you when and how I want, and you don’t argue about it.”\\
 He looked kind of like the movie version of Bob Cratchit, in the scene near the end where Scrooge tells him he’s going to raise his salary. He looked kind of like the movie version of Bob Cratchit, in the scene near the end where Scrooge tells him he’s going to raise his salary.
-“Okay.”+“Okay.”\\
  
 I felt a tremendous sense of relief myself, though my hands were still clammy and my heart went on pounding.I’d been sure Steve was going to tell me I’d set up the whole situation for the sole purpose of coercing him into accepting my perverted agenda (which of course I had), and I’d worked myself up into a bad case of the terrors.Now that he’d given his assent so easily, everything was right again. I felt a tremendous sense of relief myself, though my hands were still clammy and my heart went on pounding.I’d been sure Steve was going to tell me I’d set up the whole situation for the sole purpose of coercing him into accepting my perverted agenda (which of course I had), and I’d worked myself up into a bad case of the terrors.Now that he’d given his assent so easily, everything was right again.
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 I realized I had to say something-I was in charge-but what?I certainly wasn’t going to pick up our lovemaking where we left off; my anxiety had squelched my desire and left a most unkissable taste in my mouth. I realized I had to say something-I was in charge-but what?I certainly wasn’t going to pick up our lovemaking where we left off; my anxiety had squelched my desire and left a most unkissable taste in my mouth.
  
-“How about coming over tomorrow at the same time?​That’ll give me a chance to get over being mad at you and also finish some work I need to get done for my lit class.” +“How about coming over tomorrow at the same time?​That’ll give me a chance to get over being mad at you and also finish some work I need to get done for my lit class.”\\ 
-“Sure.” +“Sure.”\\ 
-He was usually more talkative-probably afraid of making another mistake. +He was usually more talkative-probably afraid of making another mistake.\\ 
-“Maybe then I’ll show you one of the things that can happen to a love slave who misbehaves.” +“Maybe then I’ll show you one of the things that can happen to a love slave who misbehaves.”\\ 
-“Umgawa! I don’t think I want to know.” +“Umgawa! I don’t think I want to know.”\\ 
-He waited for a response, but I just smiled. +He waited for a response, but I just smiled.\\ 
-“You know, I haven’t even had time to misbehave since agreeing to be your love slave.” +“You know, I haven’t even had time to misbehave since agreeing to be your love slave.”\\ 
-“Well, maybe I won’t show you.I’ll see whether I still need to work out my annoyance over today.” +“Well, maybe I won’t show you.I’ll see whether I still need to work out my annoyance over today.”\\ 
-“I’ll see you tomorrow,​” he shrugged, and he was gone. +“I’ll see you tomorrow,​” he shrugged, and he was gone.\\ 
-I wondered about his not having tried to kiss or hug me on the way out.Had my anxiety left me smelling that bad?Was he being careful not to break my rule against touching me unless I told him to?Had he stopped liking me?I had exchanged my familiar world for a new one, and I didn’t know how to navigate anymore.+I wondered about his not having tried to kiss or hug me on the way out.Had my anxiety left me smelling that bad?Was he being careful not to break my rule against touching me unless I told him to?Had he stopped liking me?I had exchanged my familiar world for a new one, and I didn’t know how to navigate anymore.\\
  
-The next day, Steve showed up in a sweatsuit.It was just perfect for acting out one of the fantasies that had been running through my mind that morning, and I told him so.I led him to the bed and sat down.He made a move to do the same. +The next day, Steve showed up in a sweatsuit.It was just perfect for acting out one of the fantasies that had been running through my mind that morning, and I told him so.I led him to the bed and sat down.He made a move to do the same.\\ 
-“No, just stand here in front of me.”+“No, just stand here in front of me.”\\
 I hooked my fingers into opposite sides of the collective waistband of his sweatpants and undershorts and pulled them both down to his knees. I hooked my fingers into opposite sides of the collective waistband of his sweatpants and undershorts and pulled them both down to his knees.
-“Umgawa! What are you doing?You didn’t even kiss me hello!” +“Umgawa! What are you doing?You didn’t even kiss me hello!”\\ 
-“I know. Kissing turns you on, and then by the time we get your clothes out of the way, you’re all hard.I want to watch you get hard.” +“I know. Kissing turns you on, and then by the time we get your clothes out of the way, you’re all hard.I want to watch you get hard.”\\ 
-“Wow! It looks like being your love slave sure is going to be different!” +“Wow! It looks like being your love slave sure is going to be different!”\\ 
-“I’d have to be crazy, not to have some fun with it.” +“I’d have to be crazy, not to have some fun with it.”\\ 
-When I first exposed his cock, it was already bigger than when he’d got dressed after the last time I made him come, and now it grew and stiffened rapidly as I watched.Soon it was sticking up at an angle, fully erect.” +When I first exposed his cock, it was already bigger than when he’d got dressed after the last time I made him come, and now it grew and stiffened rapidly as I watched.Soon it was sticking up at an angle, fully erect.”\\ 
-“How does it feel to have me watch that happen?​” +“How does it feel to have me watch that happen?”\\ 
-“It’s exciting!I can’t wait to see how you use me next!” +“It’s exciting!I can’t wait to see how you use me next!”\\ 
-I had him finish getting out of his clothes, then I got out of mine. +I had him finish getting out of his clothes, then I got out of mine.\\ 
-“Come lie down with me.” +“Come lie down with me.”\\ 
-We kissed, we cuddled, he made love to my breasts with his mouth.He fingered my pussy, then moved down to suck and tongue my clit while he stimulated my nipples with his fingers.I came repeatedly. +We kissed, we cuddled, he made love to my breasts with his mouth.He fingered my pussy, then moved down to suck and tongue my clit while he stimulated my nipples with his fingers.I came repeatedly.\\ 
-“Come on back up here and let’s cuddle some more,” I said at last. +“Come on back up here and let’s cuddle some more,” I said at last.\\ 
-He did as I said and we wrapped our arms around one another.I delighted in the urgency of his excitement; the pulsing wetness of his cockhead affirmed the power of my femininity and boosted my confidence. +He did as I said and we wrapped our arms around one another.I delighted in the urgency of his excitement; the pulsing wetness of his cockhead affirmed the power of my femininity and boosted my confidence.\\ 
-“That felt so good, Steve!I really like the way you do that.” +“That felt so good, Steve!I really like the way you do that.”\\ 
-“Thanks. I like the way you like it.It’s groovy seeing you so turned on.” +“Thanks. I like the way you like it.It’s groovy seeing you so turned on.”\\ 
-“I believe it. You’re dripping on my tummy.”+“I believe it. You’re dripping on my tummy.”\\
 I sat partway up. “Here…”I took hold of his cock and swirled the slippery liquid around the head with my thumb, studying it as I did.I spread the little slit between my thumb and forefinger and examined that, then tried sliding the tip of my thumb back and forth in it. I sat partway up. “Here…”I took hold of his cock and swirled the slippery liquid around the head with my thumb, studying it as I did.I spread the little slit between my thumb and forefinger and examined that, then tried sliding the tip of my thumb back and forth in it.
-“I know what I want to do!” +“I know what I want to do!”\\ 
-I jumped up and heard Steve ask, “What?” as I retrieved a tangled heap of rope, webbing and carabiners. +I jumped up and heard Steve ask, “What?” as I retrieved a tangled heap of rope, webbing and carabiners.\\ 
-“Guess,​” I answered, undoing the tangles as fast as I could. +“Guess,​” I answered, undoing the tangles as fast as I could.\\ 
-“You’re gonna tie me up?” +“You’re gonna tie me up?”\\ 
-“Mm-hm!” +“Mm-hm!”\\ 
-“Sufferin’ succotash!” he exclaimed, affecting a Looney lisp.“I don’t know what to say!This is so sudden!Nobody’s ever taken such an interest in me before!My gosh, I haven’t a thing to wear…!”+“Sufferin’ succotash!” he exclaimed, affecting a Looney lisp.“I don’t know what to say!This is so sudden!Nobody’s ever taken such an interest in me before!My gosh, I haven’t a thing to wear…!”\\
 He went on like that, but I missed most of it-some because I was concentrating on the tangle and some because I was laughing so hard at the bits I caught. He went on like that, but I missed most of it-some because I was concentrating on the tangle and some because I was laughing so hard at the bits I caught.
  
 When I had enough ends free, I set about tying him to the bed.I used climbers’ knots to secure first his wrists, then his ankles (I hadn’t yet perfected the knots I use now, nor had I realized that there’s no advantage to binding a man’s legs, but I’m sure my clumsiness did no harm). It was a while before I was satisfied with my work, but his cock was still hard. When I had enough ends free, I set about tying him to the bed.I used climbers’ knots to secure first his wrists, then his ankles (I hadn’t yet perfected the knots I use now, nor had I realized that there’s no advantage to binding a man’s legs, but I’m sure my clumsiness did no harm). It was a while before I was satisfied with my work, but his cock was still hard.
  
-“How does it feel, being tied up like that, knowing I can do anything I want to you?” +“How does it feel, being tied up like that, knowing I can do anything I want to you?”\\ 
-“It’s exciting!At least, so far it is.” +“It’s exciting!At least, so far it is.”\\ 
-“Aren’t you a little worried about what I said yesterday-that you might get what you deserve for lunging at me?” +“Aren’t you a little worried about what I said yesterday-that you might get what you deserve for lunging at me?”\\ 
-“A little. But you might decide to be nice to me.I think that’s the kind of person you are, and I’ve promised to be nice to you.” +“A little. But you might decide to be nice to me.I think that’s the kind of person you are, and I’ve promised to be nice to you.”\\ 
-“Maybe I should show you what might happen if you’re not nice, just to be sure you don’t change your mind.” +“Maybe I should show you what might happen if you’re not nice, just to be sure you don’t change your mind.”\\ 
-“I’ll be nice to you.I won’t even try to tell you what to do; I’ll just be yours, like we agreed.” +“I’ll be nice to you.I won’t even try to tell you what to do; I’ll just be yours, like we agreed.”\\ 
-“Okay, I’ll think about that.Meanwhile I want to find out what turns you on.”+“Okay, I’ll think about that.Meanwhile I want to find out what turns you on.”\\
 I explored his body, lightly caressing in turn his thighs, ears, neck, cheeks, lips, nipples and scrotum, watching his cock for a response.I didn’t get much, so I started massaging his cock with both hands, and that increased his arousal considerably.When I thought he was close to orgasm, I stopped and stroked his thighs.Nothing.I rubbed his cock some more, then kissed him teasingly on the mouth and tried his ears, neck and cheeks again. there either, so I went back to his cock to warm him up for another go.When he was in the same state as I had him before, I stopped and ran a couple of fingers along is scrotum. I explored his body, lightly caressing in turn his thighs, ears, neck, cheeks, lips, nipples and scrotum, watching his cock for a response.I didn’t get much, so I started massaging his cock with both hands, and that increased his arousal considerably.When I thought he was close to orgasm, I stopped and stroked his thighs.Nothing.I rubbed his cock some more, then kissed him teasingly on the mouth and tried his ears, neck and cheeks again. there either, so I went back to his cock to warm him up for another go.When he was in the same state as I had him before, I stopped and ran a couple of fingers along is scrotum.
  
-.His cock gave a little jump. +.His cock gave a little jump.\\ 
-“Ooh, that’s something!” +“Ooh, that’s something!”\\ 
-“Yeah, it excites me.” +“Yeah, it excites me.”\\ 
-“It didn’t do anything before.” +“It didn’t do anything before.”\\ 
-“It excited me then too, but I wasn’t turned on enough so you could see it.” +“It excited me then too, but I wasn’t turned on enough so you could see it.”\\ 
-I did it again, and his cock stiffened and relaxed the same way, still more noticeably.The thought occurred to me that he must be terribly embarrassed by what we were doing; I knew I would have been, had our roles been reversed.I was tempted to ask him about it but decided not to.I was happy to be getting such a good education, and I was worried that inviting him to complain about his embarrassment might bring a response that would oblige me to slow down. +I did it again, and his cock stiffened and relaxed the same way, still more noticeably.The thought occurred to me that he must be terribly embarrassed by what we were doing; I knew I would have been, had our roles been reversed.I was tempted to ask him about it but decided not to.I was happy to be getting such a good education, and I was worried that inviting him to complain about his embarrassment might bring a response that would oblige me to slow down.\\ 
-I went back to stroking his cock, and when he was all fired up again, I stopped once more. +I went back to stroking his cock, and when he was all fired up again, I stopped once more.\\ 
-“I wonder…,​” I said, and I ran both index fingers around his nipples in tight circles.+“I wonder…,​” I said, and I ran both index fingers around his nipples in tight circles.\\
  
-He reacted even before I touched him, pulling at all the bonds at once and jerking his hips.Once I made contact, a broken groaning noise began deep in his throat, his cock started bouncing, and his hips bucked twice. +He reacted even before I touched him, pulling at all the bonds at once and jerking his hips.Once I made contact, a broken groaning noise began deep in his throat, his cock started bouncing, and his hips bucked twice.\\ 
-“That’s really something!” +“That’s really something!”\\ 
-I continued circling his nipples to see what would happen.His cock kept twitching, but less often and with less force, and his hips were still.The noise in his throat stopped when he ran out of air.He swallowed hard and his breathing became more regular. +I continued circling his nipples to see what would happen.His cock kept twitching, but less often and with less force, and his hips were still.The noise in his throat stopped when he ran out of air.He swallowed hard and his breathing became more regular.\\ 
-I withdrew my hands and waited for him to regain his composure.He closed his eyes. +I withdrew my hands and waited for him to regain his composure.He closed his eyes.\\ 
-How did that feel? +How did that feel?\\ 
-He opened his eyes again +He opened his eyes again\\ 
-“Exciting! I don’t think I can describe it.” +“Exciting! I don’t think I can describe it.”\\ 
-I couldn’t resist any longer; I had to say it.“I’m glad you told me you don’t mind if I use you, ’cause otherwise I might worry how embarrassing this must be.” +I couldn’t resist any longer; I had to say it.“I’m glad you told me you don’t mind if I use you, ’cause otherwise I might worry how embarrassing this must be.”\\ 
-“I guess you were right when I said that; I never really thought about how it would feel if something like this happened.I never thought something like this could happen.This is embarrassing,​ but it’s still exciting.” +“I guess you were right when I said that; I never really thought about how it would feel if something like this happened.I never thought something like this could happen.This is embarrassing,​ but it’s still exciting.”\\ 
-“Suppose I tell you, being my love slave is always going to be this embarrassing.Are you still going to be my love slave?” +“Suppose I tell you, being my love slave is always going to be this embarrassing.Are you still going to be my love slave?”\\ 
-I had set out to project confidence, and I don’t think I got off to too bad a start, but I wound up sounding like I needed reassurance,​ and in fact I did.It meant so much to me to have hm there, tied naked and helpless for me to play with, that I couldn’t bear the thought that he might not give himself to me like that again, that his embarrassment might make him quit after this once. +I had set out to project confidence, and I don’t think I got off to too bad a start, but I wound up sounding like I needed reassurance,​ and in fact I did.It meant so much to me to have hm there, tied naked and helpless for me to play with, that I couldn’t bear the thought that he might not give himself to me like that again, that his embarrassment might make him quit after this once.\\ 
-He closed his eyes again and stayed like that for a long time, then looked at me. +He closed his eyes again and stayed like that for a long time, then looked at me.\\ 
-“It’s an embarrassing question, too,” he said.+“It’s an embarrassing question, too,” he said.\\
  
 And suddenly I knew he was in love with me.It had come over him just then, as he lay there.I could see it in his eyes.A softness, a caring-there was no mistaking that look, especially since it didn’t match our conversation in any way that I could yet understand. And suddenly I knew he was in love with me.It had come over him just then, as he lay there.I could see it in his eyes.A softness, a caring-there was no mistaking that look, especially since it didn’t match our conversation in any way that I could yet understand.
 I was drunk with power. Wow! I made him fall in love with me!Onward!First,​ all the men of this little city!Then Montréal! I was drunk with power. Wow! I made him fall in love with me!Onward!First,​ all the men of this little city!Then Montréal!
-By the grace of God, the feeling passed in a moment. +By the grace of God, the feeling passed in a moment.\\ 
-Then I needed to understand.What just happened here?What, precisely, did I do? +Then I needed to understand.What just happened here?What, precisely, did I do?\\ 
-But no, that could wait.Steve was more important.Here he was, in love with me, and I didn’t know what I had done, didn’t know what I was doing. It would be so easy to hurt him now, just by being careless, just by mistake, and it would be so horribly wrong. +But no, that could wait.Steve was more important.Here he was, in love with me, and I didn’t know what I had done, didn’t know what I was doing. It would be so easy to hurt him now, just by being careless, just by mistake, and it would be so horribly wrong.\\ 
-He swallowed again. “I’ll still do it.”+He swallowed again. “I’ll still do it.”\\
 I realized I was looking back at him the same way he was looking at me, not just toying with him as I’d planned but genuinely loving him.I hadn’t expected such intensity of feeling and it seemed incongruous with the situation-with his being tied up like that-but I couldn’t deny what was happening to me. I realized I was looking back at him the same way he was looking at me, not just toying with him as I’d planned but genuinely loving him.I hadn’t expected such intensity of feeling and it seemed incongruous with the situation-with his being tied up like that-but I couldn’t deny what was happening to me.
  
-I’d puzzle it out later.Now I had an agenda to follow, a role to play, an opportunity too rare to pass up. +I’d puzzle it out later.Now I had an agenda to follow, a role to play, an opportunity too rare to pass up.\\ 
-I managed a smile. “Neat!I’ll try to see that you enjoy it.Most of the time, anyway.Today I might still want to pay you back for what you did yesterday.” +I managed a smile. “Neat!I’ll try to see that you enjoy it.Most of the time, anyway.Today I might still want to pay you back for what you did yesterday.”\\ 
-I took hold of his cock again and rubbed it with both hands until he came.The previous time had been nothing, compared to the show he put on for me now.He let out a stream of forced guttural noises, his hips jerked wildly, and he seemed to unload more than an ounce of fluid, and with such force that some of it splattered on the wall behind him. +I took hold of his cock again and rubbed it with both hands until he came.The previous time had been nothing, compared to the show he put on for me now.He let out a stream of forced guttural noises, his hips jerked wildly, and he seemed to unload more than an ounce of fluid, and with such force that some of it splattered on the wall behind him.\\ 
-“Wow! Big one, isn’t it?” +“Wow! Big one, isn’t it?”\\ 
-He raised his head, looked into my eyes, and nodded slightly.“Uh-huh.”+He raised his head, looked into my eyes, and nodded slightly.“Uh-huh.”\\
 Orgasm had convulsed his face into something beautiful, his left cheek splashed with come.I appreciated how much effort he put into answering me in that state, how he must have craved the intimacy of that little gesture.I nodded in response and I knew he could see the love I was feeling. Orgasm had convulsed his face into something beautiful, his left cheek splashed with come.I appreciated how much effort he put into answering me in that state, how he must have craved the intimacy of that little gesture.I nodded in response and I knew he could see the love I was feeling.
  
 Soon it was over. His hips settled down, his breathing grew quieter, and the throbbing of his cock became less forceful and ejected no more fluid.Confused though I was by the complexity of my feelings, I was determined to hold to my plan.I kept up my stroking.I knew that most men need the stimulation discontinued at this point but I wasn’t yet sure about Steve, which is why I’d told him only that he might be subjected to some sort of ordeal rather than promising it as a certainty.Now,​ though, I was finding out.His breath started to catch in his throat again and he squirmed and tried to pull away. Soon it was over. His hips settled down, his breathing grew quieter, and the throbbing of his cock became less forceful and ejected no more fluid.Confused though I was by the complexity of my feelings, I was determined to hold to my plan.I kept up my stroking.I knew that most men need the stimulation discontinued at this point but I wasn’t yet sure about Steve, which is why I’d told him only that he might be subjected to some sort of ordeal rather than promising it as a certainty.Now,​ though, I was finding out.His breath started to catch in his throat again and he squirmed and tried to pull away.
-“Ooww! Let go!”+“Ooww! Let go!”\\
 “Unh-Unh,​” I teased, following the twisting of his hips with my hands and milking him steadily.“I warned you something like this might happen.See? This is one of the things I can do if you misbehave like yesterday.I tie you up, and I play with you until you have an orgasm, and I don’t let it end.” “Unh-Unh,​” I teased, following the twisting of his hips with my hands and milking him steadily.“I warned you something like this might happen.See? This is one of the things I can do if you misbehave like yesterday.I tie you up, and I play with you until you have an orgasm, and I don’t let it end.”
  
-He was thrashing as much as the bonds would permit, bucking his hips frantically.I wondered whether it was all an attempt to pull his cock out from between my hands, or whether it was a reflex response to the stimulation,​ or whether it was some of each.He made the most piteous noises the whole time, and at last he took a deep breath and let out a long, mournful, “Ooooooowww!”“Okay,​ I’ll stop.” +He was thrashing as much as the bonds would permit, bucking his hips frantically.I wondered whether it was all an attempt to pull his cock out from between my hands, or whether it was a reflex response to the stimulation,​ or whether it was some of each.He made the most piteous noises the whole time, and at last he took a deep breath and let out a long, mournful, “Ooooooowww!”“Okay,​ I’ll stop.”\\ 
-I let go, studied him affectionately as he tried to pull himself together, saw the love in his eyes when he was finally able to look into mine, watched him grope for words. +I let go, studied him affectionately as he tried to pull himself together, saw the love in his eyes when he was finally able to look into mine, watched him grope for words.\\ 
-“I don’t know what to say.” +“I don’t know what to say.”\\ 
-It was funny, in its way, and I appreciated the humor; I also liked the honesty and precision of it. +It was funny, in its way, and I appreciated the humor; I also liked the honesty and precision of it.\\ 
-“You don’t have to say anything.Just relax.I’ll untie you.” +“You don’t have to say anything.Just relax.I’ll untie you.”\\ 
-I undid the bonds, retrieved an old shirt from the laundry bag and dried him off, then got into bed and cuddled him. +I undid the bonds, retrieved an old shirt from the laundry bag and dried him off, then got into bed and cuddled him.\\ 
-“You’re a lot of fun to play with.I’m going to like having you as a love slave.” +“You’re a lot of fun to play with.I’m going to like having you as a love slave.”\\ 
-“I think I’m happy to hear that.I love you.I want to keep seeing you.I didn’t know that until today.I figured I’d just try to get to know you and see how things went, but I do love you. Only I don’t know how much of this treatment I can take.It hurts.” +“I think I’m happy to hear that.I love you.I want to keep seeing you.I didn’t know that until today.I figured I’d just try to get to know you and see how things went, but I do love you. Only I don’t know how much of this treatment I can take.It hurts.”\\ 
-“Well, I don’t think I’ll do it too often.I don’t even think I’ll tie you up very often, and some of the times I tie you up, I’ll stop playing with you when you need me to.Of course sometimes I’ll do it just like today, and when I first tie you up, you won’t know which it’ll be.” +“Well, I don’t think I’ll do it too often.I don’t even think I’ll tie you up very often, and some of the times I tie you up, I’ll stop playing with you when you need me to.Of course sometimes I’ll do it just like today, and when I first tie you up, you won’t know which it’ll be.”\\ 
-“Oh, wow!”He held me tight.+“Oh, wow!”He held me tight.\\
  
 After Steve had gone, I took an inventory of the pieces I had of the puzzle.I wouldn’t be able to rest until I’d assembled them into at least a partial understanding of what had happened, and then I would have to see whether anything was missing-anything I still needed to discover if I was to grasp it all. After Steve had gone, I took an inventory of the pieces I had of the puzzle.I wouldn’t be able to rest until I’d assembled them into at least a partial understanding of what had happened, and then I would have to see whether anything was missing-anything I still needed to discover if I was to grasp it all.
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 When I’d exposed Steve’s cock, it got hard just from his knowing I was watching.I hadn’t expected that.I thought I’d have to stimulate it if I wanted to see it get hard, and I was impressed by the way it grew and stiffened in response to my gaze alone.The obvious conclusion was that what turned him on was his self-conscious awareness that I would get to witness his arousal-his embarrassment at being put on display to satisfy my feminine curiosity.Whenever I had seen an erect penis before, I could find some other explanation for the excitement it reflected.Even when I reminisced about that summer day in Maryland, I had always assumed that what so aroused the boy in the bushes was the sight of our naked female bodies.Now I wondered.Sure,​ all those erections could be explained otherwise than by embarrassment,​ but perhaps some of those explanations were incomplete.Maybe a few were even wrong. When I’d exposed Steve’s cock, it got hard just from his knowing I was watching.I hadn’t expected that.I thought I’d have to stimulate it if I wanted to see it get hard, and I was impressed by the way it grew and stiffened in response to my gaze alone.The obvious conclusion was that what turned him on was his self-conscious awareness that I would get to witness his arousal-his embarrassment at being put on display to satisfy my feminine curiosity.Whenever I had seen an erect penis before, I could find some other explanation for the excitement it reflected.Even when I reminisced about that summer day in Maryland, I had always assumed that what so aroused the boy in the bushes was the sight of our naked female bodies.Now I wondered.Sure,​ all those erections could be explained otherwise than by embarrassment,​ but perhaps some of those explanations were incomplete.Maybe a few were even wrong.
  
-Then there was that fascinating remark Steve made when I asked him whether he would still be my love slave even though he found it embarrassing.It was while considering that question that he was struck by Cupid’s arrow, and what he said when he looked at me so lovingly was, “It’s an embarrassing question, too.”+Then there was that fascinating remark Steve made when I asked him whether he would still be my love slave even though he found it embarrassing.It was while considering that question that he was struck by Cupid’s arrow, and what he said when he looked at me so lovingly was, “It’s an embarrassing question, too.”\\
 That utterance didn’t make a whole lot of sense when first I heard it, but I was sure there was meaning in it and I was determined to find it.I pondered long, trying to figure out where Steve was coming from, trying to imagine what state of mind could be reflected in those words.Why was it an embarrassing question?I could come up with only one explanation. That utterance didn’t make a whole lot of sense when first I heard it, but I was sure there was meaning in it and I was determined to find it.I pondered long, trying to figure out where Steve was coming from, trying to imagine what state of mind could be reflected in those words.Why was it an embarrassing question?I could come up with only one explanation.
  
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 There was an obvious flaw in this reasoning.He might be embarrassed by my toying and not be turned on by his embarrassment-indeed he might even find it unpleasant-but still be willing to accept it because our relationship was important to him.So an affirmative response didn’t necessarily let me know that he found his embarrassment exciting, but his state of mind was such that he didn’t see that; if he had seen it there would be no credible explanation at all for his remark.I could easily relate to that state because of my own experience the previous day, when I had been so anxious in my certainty that Steve was about to accuse me of setting him up to be coerced into sexual slavery.Realistically I had no reason to expect he would react badly even if he knew for sure.We human beings are like that; we tend to think that others know where we’re coming from. Usually they don’t, and that takes some getting used to. There was an obvious flaw in this reasoning.He might be embarrassed by my toying and not be turned on by his embarrassment-indeed he might even find it unpleasant-but still be willing to accept it because our relationship was important to him.So an affirmative response didn’t necessarily let me know that he found his embarrassment exciting, but his state of mind was such that he didn’t see that; if he had seen it there would be no credible explanation at all for his remark.I could easily relate to that state because of my own experience the previous day, when I had been so anxious in my certainty that Steve was about to accuse me of setting him up to be coerced into sexual slavery.Realistically I had no reason to expect he would react badly even if he knew for sure.We human beings are like that; we tend to think that others know where we’re coming from. Usually they don’t, and that takes some getting used to.
  
-But wait a minute! Maybe Steve understood that.Maybe he didn’t think I knew where he was coming from.There is a credible explanation for his remark in that case, after all.Maybe he wasn’t afraid I would know he was turned on by his embarrassment. Maybe he wanted me to know it, even if it might mark him as a pervert, either because he hoped I would use the knowledge to turn him on in the future, or because he had fallen in love with me and wanted me to know him that intimately, or (most likely) both.Wow!+But wait a minute! Maybe Steve understood that.Maybe he didn’t think I knew where he was coming from.There is a credible explanation for his remark in that case, after all.Maybe he wasn’t afraid I would know he was turned on by his embarrassment. Maybe he wanted me to know it, even if it might mark him as a pervert, either because he hoped I would use the knowledge to turn him on in the future, or because he had fallen in love with me and wanted me to know him that intimately, or (most likely) both.Wow!\\
 Of course, I had no way of knowing whether he feared my understanding or desired it or (again) both; but in any case, the Loop seemed a certainty. Of course, I had no way of knowing whether he feared my understanding or desired it or (again) both; but in any case, the Loop seemed a certainty.
  
-Then there was my request for reassurance.I hadn’t intended it to come out that way.The words were going to be different and the inflection stronger, but I turned a weak phrase, spoke too softly, and let my pitch rise too steeply.It sounded just pathetic. +Then there was my request for reassurance.I hadn’t intended it to come out that way.The words were going to be different and the inflection stronger, but I turned a weak phrase, spoke too softly, and let my pitch rise too steeply.It sounded just pathetic.\\ 
-What did it say to Steve?+What did it say to Steve?\\
  
 I know I seem really kinky, and playing like this embarrasses you, but I hope you like it well enough, like me well enough, trust me well enough, to want to continue sharing it with me.Right now you’re tied down so I can toy with you, but that doesn’t mean I can disregard your feelings; they matter to me, and I need you to reassure me about how you’re taking all this.Yes, I’m kinky.I’m also a lot more, just as you’re all that you are, and I hope you’ll accept me, that you’ll want to go on knowing me, that you’ll say something to encourage me right now so I can get over this worry and get back to enjoying you. I know I seem really kinky, and playing like this embarrasses you, but I hope you like it well enough, like me well enough, trust me well enough, to want to continue sharing it with me.Right now you’re tied down so I can toy with you, but that doesn’t mean I can disregard your feelings; they matter to me, and I need you to reassure me about how you’re taking all this.Yes, I’m kinky.I’m also a lot more, just as you’re all that you are, and I hope you’ll accept me, that you’ll want to go on knowing me, that you’ll say something to encourage me right now so I can get over this worry and get back to enjoying you.
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 I still didn’t know whether he believed that agreeing to continue as my love slave would itself confirm that he was turned on by his embarrassment and felt that it would be stylistically better to confess it up front, or whether he told me what he was feeling because he wanted me to know and figured that that was the only way.It was something to wonder about, but it really didn’t matter anymore.There was a far more interesting question to consider, and I turned my attention to that. I still didn’t know whether he believed that agreeing to continue as my love slave would itself confirm that he was turned on by his embarrassment and felt that it would be stylistically better to confess it up front, or whether he told me what he was feeling because he wanted me to know and figured that that was the only way.It was something to wonder about, but it really didn’t matter anymore.There was a far more interesting question to consider, and I turned my attention to that.
  
-What had given the day’s play such a high emotional charge?+What had given the day’s play such a high emotional charge?\\
 My previous relationships had been rather ordinary.Carl and I liked one another right off, became more and more intimate physically, grew to love one another and fucked many times (I had lied to Steve).We were close and our feelings were often intense.Eventually I insisted on doing a scene with him that, outwardly at least, was very much like today’s:​he ate me, and then I tied him down and played with him until he came.I didn’t try to enslave him; I hadn’t yet decided to try that sort of thing at all, and since I hadn’t yet any inkling of the Loop, it would have seemed silly to try to take control of what was already such a loving relationship.Silly was Carl’s word for the whole idea of tying him, and he went along with it only to please me.His reaction to the experience seemed close to what it would have been if he hadn’t been tied, but contaminated by disdain for the cumber of the bonds.I enjoyed toying with him, but I certainly can’t say I was emotionally overwhelmed.I loved him as always, and I appreciated his accommodating me, but that was all. My previous relationships had been rather ordinary.Carl and I liked one another right off, became more and more intimate physically, grew to love one another and fucked many times (I had lied to Steve).We were close and our feelings were often intense.Eventually I insisted on doing a scene with him that, outwardly at least, was very much like today’s:​he ate me, and then I tied him down and played with him until he came.I didn’t try to enslave him; I hadn’t yet decided to try that sort of thing at all, and since I hadn’t yet any inkling of the Loop, it would have seemed silly to try to take control of what was already such a loving relationship.Silly was Carl’s word for the whole idea of tying him, and he went along with it only to please me.His reaction to the experience seemed close to what it would have been if he hadn’t been tied, but contaminated by disdain for the cumber of the bonds.I enjoyed toying with him, but I certainly can’t say I was emotionally overwhelmed.I loved him as always, and I appreciated his accommodating me, but that was all.
  
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 I nailed down this last bit of information over the course of a couple of weeks of experimentation.I’d play with Steve’s cock until he came and then keep rubbing it, after one fashion or another, and he’d let me know whether it bothered him.He wasn’t tied down, and I never tried to prolong his distress, but it was plenty exciting for both of us, especially since we both understood that the knowledge I was gathering had only one possible use. I nailed down this last bit of information over the course of a couple of weeks of experimentation.I’d play with Steve’s cock until he came and then keep rubbing it, after one fashion or another, and he’d let me know whether it bothered him.He wasn’t tied down, and I never tried to prolong his distress, but it was plenty exciting for both of us, especially since we both understood that the knowledge I was gathering had only one possible use.
  
-It was more than exciting.+It was more than exciting.\\
 Half an hour after I’d finished the last of my experiments,​ we were cuddling, satiated, and Steve got up to go to the bathroom, then came back and lay next to me. Half an hour after I’d finished the last of my experiments,​ we were cuddling, satiated, and Steve got up to go to the bathroom, then came back and lay next to me.
  
-“Well, Yum-Yum, now I know exactly how to torture you if you decide to misbehave.How does that make you feel?” +“Well, Yum-Yum, now I know exactly how to torture you if you decide to misbehave.How does that make you feel?”\\ 
-He considered for a while, to see how he felt, so he could give me a real answer.That’s how he was, and that’s how we talked. +He considered for a while, to see how he felt, so he could give me a real answer.That’s how he was, and that’s how we talked.\\ 
-“It’s embarrassing that you know my body that well, and it’s embarrassing to be talking abut the possibility that you might torture me that way, and it’s so exciting, it’s giving me a hard-on even though I just came.” +“It’s embarrassing that you know my body that well, and it’s embarrassing to be talking abut the possibility that you might torture me that way, and it’s so exciting, it’s giving me a hard-on even though I just came.”\\ 
-I saw that it was true. +I saw that it was true.\\ 
-“Neat!Doesn’t it frighten you a little too?” +“Neat!Doesn’t it frighten you a little too?”\\ 
-He thought it over. +He thought it over.\\ 
-“No, not really.It’s you, and I know that even if you do torture me you’ll do it lovingly.+“No, not really.It’s you, and I know that even if you do torture me you’ll do it lovingly.\\
 “You know, sometimes I feel like we’re really one single piece of God’s creation, and we were made to seem like two just so we could enjoy loving each other.Looking at it that way, being embarrassed makes sense but being frightened doesn’t.I mean, it’s good that I get embarrassed because it’s a turn-on; and what my embarrassment really is, is the feeling of being known really well in whatever way we’re paying attention to at the time.That wouldn’t feel good if I thought you didn’t like what you were knowing about me, but you always do, so I wind up grooving on it.Being frightened wouldn’t feel good like that, so there’s no use to it.It would be useful if you meant me harm; then I could be frightened away from you so I’d be safe.But you’re not like that.I don’t think you can really want to hurt anyone, just like I can’t; so except for being embarrassed,​ which is a turn-on, I feel comfortable with you.” “You know, sometimes I feel like we’re really one single piece of God’s creation, and we were made to seem like two just so we could enjoy loving each other.Looking at it that way, being embarrassed makes sense but being frightened doesn’t.I mean, it’s good that I get embarrassed because it’s a turn-on; and what my embarrassment really is, is the feeling of being known really well in whatever way we’re paying attention to at the time.That wouldn’t feel good if I thought you didn’t like what you were knowing about me, but you always do, so I wind up grooving on it.Being frightened wouldn’t feel good like that, so there’s no use to it.It would be useful if you meant me harm; then I could be frightened away from you so I’d be safe.But you’re not like that.I don’t think you can really want to hurt anyone, just like I can’t; so except for being embarrassed,​ which is a turn-on, I feel comfortable with you.”
  
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 Several days later, feeling playful again, I had Steve strip as usual and told him I planned to make him come, but only if he could control himself for a couple ofhours and keep from getting hard until I was ready.As I had expected from my understanding of the Loop, his erection was more persistent than ever.I asked him for an explanation,​ partly to be sure I had it right and partly because I knew that having to talk about it would add to his embarrassment. Several days later, feeling playful again, I had Steve strip as usual and told him I planned to make him come, but only if he could control himself for a couple ofhours and keep from getting hard until I was ready.As I had expected from my understanding of the Loop, his erection was more persistent than ever.I asked him for an explanation,​ partly to be sure I had it right and partly because I knew that having to talk about it would add to his embarrassment.
  
-“Well, first, when you tell me I’m not allowed to get hard, I know you’re watching, and that turns me on all by itself; and second, you know I’m trying to control myself, so I get embarrassed by knowing that you know I can’t control myself, and that turns me on even more.It’s some trip!You’re one exciting girl!”+“Well, first, when you tell me I’m not allowed to get hard, I know you’re watching, and that turns me on all by itself; and second, you know I’m trying to control myself, so I get embarrassed by knowing that you know I can’t control myself, and that turns me on even more.It’s some trip!You’re one exciting girl!”\\
 I had him eat me before I sent him on his way, and I told him not to do anything to relieve his lust before we got together the next day because I had plans for him. I had him eat me before I sent him on his way, and I told him not to do anything to relieve his lust before we got together the next day because I had plans for him.
  
-When he returned, he was desperately horny and I inflamed his lust still further by having him eat me again.Then I tied him to the bed and strongly hinted I was going to repeat the torture of that first day as punishment for his failure to control his arousal.+When he returned, he was desperately horny and I inflamed his lust still further by having him eat me again.Then I tied him to the bed and strongly hinted I was going to repeat the torture of that first day as punishment for his failure to control his arousal.\\
 I massaged his cock until his ejaculation was inevitable. I massaged his cock until his ejaculation was inevitable.
  
-“You’re in for it now!” +“You’re in for it now!”\\ 
-I kept rubbing. +I kept rubbing.\\ 
-He lifted his bottom off the bed and a slight trickle of come oozed out the end of his cock.His muscles relaxed for one brief instant, then his hips jerked and his cock stiffened again, splashing another souvenir onto my wall. +He lifted his bottom off the bed and a slight trickle of come oozed out the end of his cock.His muscles relaxed for one brief instant, then his hips jerked and his cock stiffened again, splashing another souvenir onto my wall.\\ 
-“Ooh, yeah! Do it, Steve!” +“Ooh, yeah! Do it, Steve!”\\ 
-He did.His hips bucked wildly; animal-like grunts and cries came from his throat; he splashed the wall twice more. +He did.His hips bucked wildly; animal-like grunts and cries came from his throat; he splashed the wall twice more.\\ 
-“Beautiful,​ Steve!I love you.” +“Beautiful,​ Steve!I love you.”\\ 
-He came and came.It took at least a dozen spasms to drain him, and he wound up covered with sperm.When he finally ran dry, he started to look worried, and when I saw that, I stopped.I kept one hand on his cock, holding it gently; I wiped the other on the bedding, then used it to caress his cheek and rub his shoulder. +He came and came.It took at least a dozen spasms to drain him, and he wound up covered with sperm.When he finally ran dry, he started to look worried, and when I saw that, I stopped.I kept one hand on his cock, holding it gently; I wiped the other on the bedding, then used it to caress his cheek and rub his shoulder.\\ 
-“That was exciting, wasn’t it, thinking I might really torture you again?” +“That was exciting, wasn’t it, thinking I might really torture you again?”\\ 
-“It sure was! I’ve never come that hard!Thank you!You’re so good to me!” +“It sure was! I’ve never come that hard!Thank you!You’re so good to me!”\\ 
-“How do you feel now?” +“How do you feel now?”\\ 
-“Like a little puddle of Steve.Contented.Totally in love with you.Wow!” +“Like a little puddle of Steve.Contented.Totally in love with you.Wow!”\\ 
-I smiled and nodded. God! I loved him… +I smiled and nodded. God! I loved him…\\ 
-“I’d better get these ropes off you.”+“I’d better get these ropes off you.”\\
 I untied one knot and he started to help, twisting his body so the come dripped down his side and onto the bed.I got a towel. I untied one knot and he started to help, twisting his body so the come dripped down his side and onto the bed.I got a towel.
-“Here, lie back a minute.I’ll wipe you up.”+“Here, lie back a minute.I’ll wipe you up.”\\
 I did the best I could and we finished undoing the knots; then I lay next tohim and we held one another a long time. I did the best I could and we finished undoing the knots; then I lay next tohim and we held one another a long time.
  
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 Something I particularly wanted to try was the bondage trip Suzi had run on Barry, and I created the opportunity one unusually warm day in early spring when I led Steve to a secluded spot in one of my favorite woods.I found a big pine tree with a fallen log under it, tied Steve’s wrists together in front of him, took a length of rope and tied it loosely to the loop of plastic that kept the top of my water bottle from getting lost, then threw the bottle over one of the lower branches of the tree.I untied the bottle and instead fastened the end of the rope to the figure-eight between Steve’s wrists, then pulled the other end until his arms were extended upward, and finally lashed the free end to the tree trunk.I undid Steve’s belt and dropped his jeans. Something I particularly wanted to try was the bondage trip Suzi had run on Barry, and I created the opportunity one unusually warm day in early spring when I led Steve to a secluded spot in one of my favorite woods.I found a big pine tree with a fallen log under it, tied Steve’s wrists together in front of him, took a length of rope and tied it loosely to the loop of plastic that kept the top of my water bottle from getting lost, then threw the bottle over one of the lower branches of the tree.I untied the bottle and instead fastened the end of the rope to the figure-eight between Steve’s wrists, then pulled the other end until his arms were extended upward, and finally lashed the free end to the tree trunk.I undid Steve’s belt and dropped his jeans.
  
-“I’ve been wondering, Steve, whether you could get your ejaculation under control and stop coming after just a couple of spurts if you tried really hard.What do you think? +“I’ve been wondering, Steve, whether you could get your ejaculation under control and stop coming after just a couple of spurts if you tried really hard.What do you think?\\ 
-“Of course I couldn’t.Remember how you did all those experiments on me?And proved that I can’t stop until you let me?” +“Of course I couldn’t.Remember how you did all those experiments on me?And proved that I can’t stop until you let me?”\\ 
-“What if I stopped rubbing as soon as you started to come, and I just held your cock without doing anything?​” +“What if I stopped rubbing as soon as you started to come, and I just held your cock without doing anything?​”\\ 
-“I don’t know for sure, but I don’t think I could stop anyway.” +“I don’t know for sure, but I don’t think I could stop anyway.”\\ 
-connected to the tip of his cock.Everything around us was so wonderfully green, smelled so wonderfully green. +connected to the tip of his cock.Everything around us was so wonderfully green, smelled so wonderfully green.\\ 
-“Well,” he began, “the whole thing was really embarrassing and really exciting because I knew you wanted to watch my cock move like that and I had to let you.I mean, when you let go, it was too late to keep from coming, and I couldn’t hold my cock still while I came, or make it move only a little, so I had to let you see it move a lot, and it’s really embarrassing,​ having a girl watch that.At the same time, each spurt felt really good, same as it always does; that’s just the way a guy’s orgasm is. +“Well,” he began, “the whole thing was really embarrassing and really exciting because I knew you wanted to watch my cock move like that and I had to let you.I mean, when you let go, it was too late to keep from coming, and I couldn’t hold my cock still while I came, or make it move only a little, so I had to let you see it move a lot, and it’s really embarrassing,​ having a girl watch that.At the same time, each spurt felt really good, same as it always does; that’s just the way a guy’s orgasm is.\\ 
-“I really wanted to hold back the fourth one, but I couldn’t.It was just part of coming, and since you wanted to know, it looks like I can’t get it under control once I start; it just has to die down by itself. +“I really wanted to hold back the fourth one, but I couldn’t.It was just part of coming, and since you wanted to know, it looks like I can’t get it under control once I start; it just has to die down by itself.\\ 
-“How I felt… I felt like I was telling you how I felt, just by spurting, and you could hear me.It was like I was saying, Here, I need to move my cock for you to see and I need to let you know how much it embarrasses me.I love you and you turn me on so much that I need to give you everything you want, right now, even if it means I don’t get to ball you.” +“How I felt… I felt like I was telling you how I felt, just by spurting, and you could hear me.It was like I was saying, Here, I need to move my cock for you to see and I need to let you know how much it embarrasses me.I love you and you turn me on so much that I need to give you everything you want, right now, even if it means I don’t get to ball you.”\\ 
-His words were somehow permeated with the green smell.Turned on as I was, I felt strangely peaceful, almost spacey. +His words were somehow permeated with the green smell.Turned on as I was, I felt strangely peaceful, almost spacey.\\ 
-“Really?​” I asked. +“Really?​” I asked.\\ 
-“Yeah.” +“Yeah.”\\ 
-“That’s beautiful.I love you too, Steve.I hope you know that.” +“That’s beautiful.I love you too, Steve.I hope you know that.”\\ 
-“Yeah, I do. It’s nice to hear you say it.Thanks.”+“Yeah, I do. It’s nice to hear you say it.Thanks.”\\
 I stood up and unhitched the rope.He lowered his arms.I untied his hands.We hugged, then walked back to civilization. I stood up and unhitched the rope.He lowered his arms.I untied his hands.We hugged, then walked back to civilization.
  
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